Roller Coasters

As most of you know I am LOSING WEIGHT FOR THE LAST TIME. (Feels so exciting to write those words!)

So far I have lost 13 pounds of my baby weight.

But this month has been a roller coaster.

Exhibit A:

February 1 - 136.5

February 4 - 138.5

February 12 - 138

Feb 17 - 138.5

Feb 21 - 135.5

Feb 22 - 133.5

Feb 23 - 134.5

Feb 25 - 136.5

Feb 26 - 135.5

Can you see the roller coaster?

Up and down and up and down.

But that was the scale.

You want to know what was not up and down? What was not on a roller coaster (most of the time)?

My emotional life.

My mood.

If the scale read 138 for the 10th day in a row I did not allow this to affect my mood.

The facts:

Today, I am one pound lighter than I was on Feb 1 and I have honored my protocol.

My main thought:

Just keep going. You’ve got this. Sometimes you lose one pound in a month. Sometimes you lose 7. It is okay. Nothing has gone wrong here.

My main result because of that thought:

Overall, permanent weight loss in 2020.

My main old thought (say 5 years ago):

This isn’t working, eff it. It is not fair.

My main old result because of that thought (say 5 years ago):

Yo-yo dieting, eating all the things, shame, weight loss purgatory, handing over my emotional power to an EFFING SCALE, not being where I want to be, and most importantly a kind of a crappy relationship with myself.

Can you see how our thoughts create our life?

It is never the scale or the boyfriend or the boss or the to do list that causes our emotional wellbeing and our results. It is always, always our thoughts.

So you might as well choose ones you like.